self-care sunday

I woke up today without a care in the world.  I have a full day to just do me!  No agenda, appointments, or interruptions.  I feel like the luckiest girl in the world.  Who else can wake up this way? 

The old me would’ve woken up with a severe hangover, stumbling through my dog walk, and then glued to the couch for hours.  I would then slip into alcohol induced depression filled with lack of motivation, regrets, and uncertainty.   I would struggle the rest of the day trying to lift my mood by either binge watching rom-coms (that really send a single girl deeper into depression), deciding hair of the dog is the best remedy, or on the rare occasion I would actually stay in and clean, organize, and prepare for the next week.  Any way that I look at it, it was a sad lonely life. 

This pattern probably would’ve continued if it weren’t for the pandemic shutting the world down in 2020.  There was nowhere to go and you were to seclude yourself from others.  My first reaction was complete disbelief that this could EVER happen!?  Even restaurants were closed??  I had never even gotten a holiday off?  This is the craziest thing that has ever happened!?  Then time kept getting added on to the shutdown.  My next stage was a bit of panic about money because I already lived paycheck to paycheck.  The realization that I wasn’t the only one in this predicament helped soften the blow of hitting rock bottom.  The next mindset shift that created was I wasn’t going to let this physically beat me either.  I had the opportunity and time to exercise, eat mindfully, and cut the drinking.  (I couldn’t afford excessive drinking since I had no idea when I would get to go back to work!?)  I started feeling better and my energy was through the roof!  I was rested, relaxed, and began to re-evaluate life.  I started doing things I loved when I was young.  I started dancing again, reading more, and writing my heart out. 

It was crazy but it started a transformation that I had only dreamed about.  I was working on personal development prior to the pandemic, but it took the world coming to a complete halt to finally force the changes I had been craving.  The slate was wiped clean and I had the opportunity to become the person I always wanted to become.  Doubt, disbelief, and fear were washed away.  I get to do everything different.   By taking care of myself, I was able to get to a new place of self-love and choose what direction life will go. 

I am blessed for an easy Sunday morning.  I am thankful to be able to slow down and take care of myself.  I will enjoy the quiet of my mind and listen to my heart.  I am present in this moment as I gain clarity to the next steps on my journey.  Everything is happening for me.  Thank you.