commitment
I finished reading The 12 Week Year this week and as I was taking notes in my book journal, writing the word COMMITMENT made me cringe. Why did that word make my skin crawl? I know in the past it meant making a decision and committing to it. Ew!
I used to be so scared to make a decision. I would be scared that I would choose wrong. I would ask everyone’s opinion before I would make a decision. Who has the best opinion and who do I trust? I would then base a decision on everyone else’s choice for me. I didn’t trust myself to choose correctly. Then after I would “choose”, the people that were on the other side of the fence would question “my” choice and I would feel bad about it. That’s when the suffering spiral of fear, doubt, and negative self-talk would consume me. Why did I care so much about what other people thought? Why was I so scared to make my own decisions? This is MY life!
Do you pay attention to the physical signals your body sends you? Do you acknowledge them and know what they really mean? I just started learning to recognize these subconscious feelings. Your body is definitely trying to tell you something but it is your job is to discover what it really means. Is it something that happened to you as a child or in the past? Is it something you’ve never done before? Are you getting a gut feeling? What is really making me uncomfortable? Don’t let your “feelings” deter you. Don’t be scared to commit to something with fear it won’t work out. So what? So you learn something that doesn’t work or you don’t like to do? That is the only way to learn and grow! Feel the fear and do it anyway!
As I let myself “feel” the tingles that the word COMMITMENT sent through my body, I realized that it’s just an old reaction based on my past. I am not scared of commitment anymore. I trust myself and love making my own decisions now. When I used to choose not commit to anything, I wouldn’t get any closer to the life I always wanted. The feelings were definitely a good reminder from my body that “committing” is nothing to be scared of. Now I choose to COMMIT to new goals, taking new actions, and creating the life I always dreamed of. If you do what you’ve always done, you’ll get what you’ve always gotten. It’s time to COMMIT to myself and my vision!
