living small
I was recently in a couple virtual retreats that focused on spirit and mindset and there is a repeating theme that keeps coming up, share your story. Well, that is why I started telling Solo with Soul stories? I wanted to share my personal growth journey in hopes that it would resonate with someone who, like me, is ready to end the shame and suffering in their life. I was sick and tired of being sick and tired and living according to other people’s opinions and expectations. What is still holding me back from living the life that I want to live?
After a few speakers it struck me, and not for the first time, but this time it really became clear to me! That is the thing about personal growth, you can hear the same thing a million times, but sometimes the timing is just right, the message comes from a new voice in a different way that finally creates that moment of clarity you’ve been waiting for!
I don’t live a big bold abundant life because I make myself small so that others don’t feel bad or intimidated. I don’t want to outshine anyone. I am not happier, prettier, or smarter than anyone else. Why would someone choose to pay me over someone else?
Why is that ok to tell myself? Why do I care what others think so much? This is MY life to live! I AM happy, pretty, and smart! I have great businesses and I deserve to be paid my value! People are naturally attracted to me and want to work with and learn from me! Why wouldn’t I own that? I don’t need to compare myself to anyone else nor should I care what they think about me. Again, this is MY life and I should use what I was blessed with to create the life I dream of.
I had to do some deep digging to try and figure out when I developed this limiting belief that made me shrink down? You can’t create lasting change if you don’t figure out what the trigger is to keep you retreating to an old way of being. I grew up strong, determined, and independent. (Thank you Mommy!) I learned as a kid that you treat others how you want to be treated and that what you had/didn’t have doesn’t make you a good/bad person. I enjoy people and treat everyone with kindness and respect unless I’m disrespected or treated badly. I am a natural protector and don’t like to see others suffer or be treated badly when they don’t deserve it. I think all people deserve respect and to live a happy life they love which is why I created my businesses. What is keeping me from getting them off the ground? Why do I stay small and in my own way? I started remembering what people would tell me that made me start to shrink. “You attract the wrong attention. You intimidate people. You speak your mind which hurts people. Why do you talk to that person? You don’t take life seriously. You aren’t working hard enough. You need to settle down. You can’t start your own business. You don’t have enough money to do that. What makes you think people will buy from you?” Hear that shit enough times and you start to believe it and question yourself, at least I did.
I’m done being small and I’m reverting back to the strong, determined, and independent woman that has always been there. This woman wants everyone to live a life that they love too! This woman is a strong woman people can look up to. This woman is determined to help others push through their challenges too. This woman is an independent entrepreneur that has the ability to create an abundant life. This woman doesn’t feel shame that people are attracted to her bright smile and kind eyes and want to do business with her. And sorry not sorry, but you are going to have to watch a pretty, happy, and smart woman rise and SHINE!! Whether it’s helping other women with personal growth through sharing Solo with Soul Stories, planning great experiences through Your Party Porter, or helping people buy a home they love being a realtor, I am here to serve! I’m grateful to finally give myself permission to just be me and accept the big abundant life I’ve always dreamed of.
